I do still enjoy watching videos of it, particularly X's Adventures in Minecraft.

I "played" Minecraft from Late 2011 (1.7.3) – Mid-2015, or there about. I put quotes around "played", because, until recently, I still pop in on occasion, just to see it again, and experience it. Like an old blanket. However, at it's peak, I would get home from school, jump on the computer, and play Minecraft. And if I wasn't playing Minecraft, I was looking up videos, tips, and tricks related to Minecraft. My life outside of school for awhile was Minecraft. You could say I was addicted. It doesn't help that I have Asperger's Syndrome (or whatever they call it these days, high-functioning autism), so I was even more obsessed than I would have been "normally". Gradually, though, my want to play Minecraft subsided, and with it, a void developed.

Suddenly, I was left without anything to focus on. My life felt somewhat directionless, and now I had to find something else to obsess over. Problem was, I still wanted to play Minecraft. Except every time I tried, I suddenly didn't want to. I was young(er) at the time, so I didn't fully understand what I was supposed to do. However, I started growing up, and only recently have I really come to peace with my little problem. I have accepted I can never play Minecraft again, as I'm just tired of it. I can't even enjoy older updates, for some reason I just tear up when I do. Probably nostalgia, and regret, amplified by my "eccentric" personality.

However, recently, I've been yearning to play a survival sandbox game. Not Minecraft, for reasons mentioned above. So, I looked around, and I found one I enjoy. I don't want to cause any kind of controversy, so I won't mention it by name. But it's relaxing, and it's a new take on survival sandbox games, which I enjoy. It's probably my favorite experience in this genre in years. However, despite all that, and my utter resentment to ever load up yet another blocky world, I started watching X's Adventures in Minecraft (again). But, now, after coming to peace with Minecraft, something was different. Suddenly, I was reliving my first time in Minecraft. My first shelter, my first time mining, my discoveries, my triumphs, my failures, the creepers, the zombies, those damn skeletons, all of it. I'm feeling nostalgia for this beautiful game I love and hate. And I enjoy watching him stumble through the then mysterious, blocky game that would go on to sell millions and millions of copies. I still don't have an urge to play anymore, but I do enjoy reliving it vicariously through X. So thanks, X. Thanks for giving me my "one last hurrah" with this game that has opened me up to my own creative, inquistive nature, as well as overall impacted my life for the better in the long run (even if it did take up my later childhood 😉 ).

Wow, this post was originally going to be a sentence or two, but it just blew up. Looks like I had some stuff I had to get off my mind. If you read this weird little tale all the way through, I applaud you, and I appreciate it. I hope you got something positive out of it. Buh-bye!

EDIT: Changed "a" to "my"